Alive with POTS

Not many people know what POTS actually is. Including doctors. People hear it and thing of the drug, which is an expected reaction. Though it is anything but simple to live with, I'm alive with POTS.

For many times I've thought of how having this is supposed to better my life. How it's supposed to make me stronger. And many years I thought of it as a curse, a crutch, a punishment. It was hard for me to understand why I was given this problem in my life. I began to curse God, I began to hate myself, I feared death, I wanted to be like the other kids, all I wanted... was to be alive. Because for those many years... For many years I felt dead.

Now, at the age of 20, I believe it is time to share my story. Because I know I'm not alone with my struggle. It may not be 'normal' to feel like I do everyday, but 'normal' just doesn't really exist.

I hope with this Blog I can bring hope, answers, and comfort to those that read it. I also hope to find others that have gone through what I have gone through in my life, because I know they are out there. I know that we can understand each other, and though we may never meet face to face we can still support each other.